December Days – I have decided to write some posts this month about things that I am grateful for. My guess is they will be people, but I am not sure because I haven’t mapped it all out. I just wanted to write a little bit about the ‘gifts’ in my life.
So I thought I would try to be transparent for those of you following along.
2015 was a year of change. After a disc in my back blew out in 2014 I found myself unable to tour, meaning unable able to earn a living; meaning my family still drives a gold 1998 Dodge caravan with missing hubcaps and a cracked windshield. I call her Goldie Hawn. She has had almost as many lives as a cat thanks to Schrader Auto…. thanks Larry!! To be fair though, I would probably still be driving that thing. So after a summer of working on small projects that came my way and thinking about how to move forward in life, let alone music, presently I find our cupboards bare and our gas tanks 1/4 filled. Christmas, as it has been most every year, will be tight. But yet, I am grateful. I am grateful that I have been able to not just ‘Do Music’ because for me its so much more than that. There has never been any other option. I am grateful for the people who have supported me along the way. All of the encouragements, the merch sales, the listens, likes and shares; the prayers, the emails, the sweaty shows, and all the miles. I don’t know what the future holds, and I feel far from where I want to be in my career, but I choose gratitude. I am grateful for those closest to me.
The person who I know the best and who knows me is My wife. She is the hardest worker I know. When music hasn’t paid the bills, she has done whatever she could do and then more to find ways to bring in extra money. She is always encouraging. She can swear like a sailor, sing like a songbird, and shake her tail-feathers like nobody’s buisness. She tells me not to give up. She tells me that what I am doing matters. She is a gift; she is a blessing; she is an inspiration to me. She is humble, gentle and kind and always thinking about others. time and time again, She has bravely put herself in unfamiliar waters. I am enormously proud of her and grateful that once a week she indulges my morning routine and drinks one coffee with me.